I think I’m in a minority here, but I am really not scared of a natural birth at all. I am, of course, trepidatious about things going wrong, but if I were able to assume a natural, healthy, uncomplicated birth, I wouldn’t be the least bit scared of it. I’m just excited for it.
Obviously I cannot blithely assume a natural, healthy, uncomplicated birth. But I feel like I’ll be in good hands if things do go a bit sideways. I’m just so excited to meet our little one after all this time, and I have a feeling that will be the dominant thing on my mind.
And what’s several hours of physical pain compared to four years of horrendous mental anguish? Especially if I’m well prepared enough to let it flow through me, not resist it, knowing it’s for a very good cause. With my husband and my doula beside me (we finally settled on Doula 1 and feel really good about it!) and a simpatico doctor, all in the place where I was born… I just feel good about it.
That is, of course, very easy to say while my uterus is still smaller than a volleyball. I’ll revisit this post afterwards and let you know precisely how full of shit it was 😉
But I’m reading up on birth a lot, listening to podcasts (both good and bad birth experiences), drawing from a variety of experts, and so stoked about my doctor’s 5% c-section rate, it just seems like my body can do this. I’ll be so jazzed if I ever get to that place, I feel like I’ll fly through birth. Not that it will be easy, but it will be… what it will be. And it will be good. Primal, empowering, life-changing. Having such a great team around me will help in relaxing me and maintaining my confidence as my body does its (incredible) thing.
Who knows? It could be nothing like that at all. But it’s nice to feel confident about something for once, and I feel like that can only be helpful. A self-fulfilling prophecy kind of thing.
And if not, well hell, I can enjoy my delusion until then 😉